GGGGGGGGGR#$@$%%$^^&$@$&^$**&%K!

Don't hang up on me bcuz you know what i said its the truth annnd you would honestly wouldnt put up with that roller coaster type shit if it was me doing it to you. so please show me the same amount of respect i show you. be honest. We have nothing else to talk about but isiah. I enjoy a### company jus the same you enjoy k######. only i dont plan on marrying him. im focused on this career and school and money. Im jus seriously tired of the BS, so cut it. you dont care about my day, i dont care about yours, when i do i will look at your fb status, you dont care about what im doing on the weekends and i dont care for your traveling you do with your ol lady. And if it werent for me having to depend on your insurance or money, isiah would prolly never hear from you, and the sad thing is I DONT PLAN ON DEPENDING ON YOU FOR MUCH LONGER, so when do you plan on being apart of your son's life? its freaking pathetic that i believed you were going to be all these fucking things annnd you dont even measure up to the slack i pick up from you! IM MORE MAN TO YOUR SON then you've been since he learned how to piss standing up. Its a shame that i seriously have doubt in my son, becuase of you, because you left us for another "family" and hes going to grow up thinking thats normal or "okay". Thats something i CAN NOT teach him becuz thats your role that you failed at.When or If he gets a female pregnant and he leaves her with a child alone, i will give her your number to call you to thank you for setting the GREAT example.

Scratch that one off the list...

OOOOHh mannn, sooo yesterday, i got one of the things on my bday wish lists. Got My (-@-)(-@-) pierced.omyshit. it HURT!! The chick who did mine said that their are females who get off on gettin their shit pierced.ThatsSooWild. The shit hurt, and if she asked me if i wanted to get the other one pierced i prolly wouldve said no, but, bless her, she went right ahead and did in my other one.lol. She was quick buh it burned like a bitch. Annd they are sooo sore right now.Ouch.
Well ive figured out what imma do for my bday, simple, dinner and club saturday. I want sushi so it will prolly be at a sushi resurant and i dont turn 21 till midnight soo ima go to a 18 and under club wit a bar.Plus i want my sisters and my other kickass friends, who arent 21 yet,(HA!HA!)to beable to go:) Im sooo EXCITED.
I feel that this is, unlike my HS graduation, this is going to be a milestone for me and i can't wait to graduate from college! its coming sooo soon its crazy.UUuuuh i will be soooo relieved after i graduate and get my job i actually want;) Im kinda looking forward to taking time off to work then going back to shool for my bachelors...so much is ahead in my life.
Sometimes people get soo beat down and tore down to nothing, losing hope and actually lose sight of their lives. Ive done it, ive seen it happen and everyone i could imagine has done it. Has had that feeling of regret of decisions you made by yourself and feeling alone. I remember when my dad grounded me from the weekend(very often) annd i use to think it was the end of the world, especially when it was my friends' bday or something. But the reality of it is, its not the end of the world, some one some where has it worse then you and someone has it better. All you can do is thrieve and keep the people close that help you back on your feet when you fall. All we have is each other and this one life, but its a loong life. Fill it with the things that mean something to you, accomplish things, make mistakes and gain experience from them.

Silly things, Silly people, Silly ish life throws at me...

I've decided i want to do my research paper on endangered animals. Who doesn't like pictures of baby animals.lol. i started my power point before my actual paper. my teacher thought it was funny.
anyWHO
Today is going pretty steady, some asian guy almost hit me in my car yesterday, it was scary as shit.it pissed me off because i looked back to look at zay and i saw his head light in isiahs window.wtf.dude didn't even see my car infront of him before he changed lanes??ugh.ppl.
Now for the sillly ish in my life, devin suddenly had a stroke of genius and texxd me talking about he will comply with everything i asked to take zay for two months.So thats great, i knew he wasn't really going to follow threw with all the hassle, when he can just compromise with me.
I need to get medical and find zay a doctor:(
well heres some Quotes

At school bored as shit.


We have this research paper due in like 3 weeks and we are in the library researchin now.ugh. someone stole ants rims this morning.fuckourlife.
Me n Devin aren't getting along.ughh. he was supposed to spend time with zay this summer, but cant be civilized and have a conversation on some real issues. I guess it shows the maturity level he is at in his life. Seriously he expects me to let him take isiah off across the US and not ask questions?? sometimes i question if he really does want to see isiah because hes constantly constantly constantly telling me to see it from his point of view, blah blah i haven't seen him in months, blah blah and i say well u decided to leave no one forced you to join the military blah blah, annnd he cries his same song and story. BUT if it were ME, i would jump threw hoops to see my son for a week.wtf?.And i said he could take him for 2 MONTHS!!He wants to take this route in stead of answering questions likke; Whats the address he will be staying? The home phone number? The number of the daycare center that will be taking care of him while devin is at work or whatever he does over there? Buy his round trip tickets in advance, so i can photo copy them and sign on the dotted line saying you will be bringing my son back to me and that this is only a vacational visit. buuut nooo he says he rather go threw the courts. well thats what he will have to do i guess. i mean is it too much to ask for? Really? and he hasn't looked at it from my point.nor do i ask him to. because thats to hard of a task for him to comprehend.lol. threw the court is fine with me, he thinks they will grant him vacational visitation for a month? they won't. the most he will recieve is two weeks maybe three. i grew up with divorced parents and a father who fought for visitation. He didn't.

Any way i doubt hes going to even follow threw with this, hes too self involved er self centered. Im just going to keep my head up, stay strong, and focus on this life im delt.

Going to his game, they won.lol

We spent the day together yesterday, it was nice;)
Zay follows him around every where its hilarious.

Its that TIME of the Year again;)

IM GOING TO BE 21 MAY 23rd!!!! I can't wait. i wanna get a party bus, so far theres only a hand full of people down for it, everyone would have to drop like $10...not including drinks;)prolly go to the club and dinner. And two weekends after my bday we r going camping on the beach again:) Some people want to go to San fran the weekend after my bday, because my bday falls on a sunday, so if we do the hoole shit wit the club and everything i would have to do it around midnite on saturday nite. Im excited.yee. If anyone reads this and want to participate in this celebration.lol.dork. aim me at shellynificent. I talked to my cousin on monday, hes more excited then me. my mom and grandma is coming to town may 20th. and devin will be leaving may 20th. He says hes gunna try to get me n zay in our own place while hes out here. we will see.Mothers day is coming up i think ima jus plan to spend the whoole day with zay and visit with some mothers, i haven't seen marshell's mom in a min, soo im gunna make it a plan to visit her on mothers day.Zay made me a present already, its his hand print in this clay stuff and he painted it and everything.awwlove.
Zay took "class pics"

Ahh man i jus finished philosophy and econ, now im in management and english. they are both going smoothly soo far, i mean i enjoy english and writing and ish but its a fast pace program soo theres short essays everyday and a 5 page essay due by the end of this mod. i can handle it tho. Management is relax, our instructor jus lectures and assigns case studies every other day. Find me on facebook;)

April showers bring May flowers?

Hello bloggers. ive been out the game for a while.lol been busy as hell. Econ+Philosophy not a good combo.ugh. ne way this summer is starting out pretty mellow, alittle wild, its cloudy one day and sunny the next. wierd...Any way here are some pics.


Lamb, it was soo good i had to take a pic.


Spring break was sweet, well i should say spring weekend.lol you cant see my face buh i had a blast, we rode this coaster lik 5 times.lol Sam, me, debbie and shelle.


Anthony was craving crab shack at 11 at night.wtf.lol Raj is in the background.


My Handsome boy all dressed and pressed for easter;)


Yeeaah fooood. hahahaha




Yeeahh More Fooood lol!




Anthony mistaken easter for valentines day.lol. he got me this oversized bunny and rose and a bunch of other candy. He got zay this cute golf set:)

Four Day Weekend..Sssweeeeeeeet

Ive been too busy to function correctly....ugh. Finals next week :/ FOUR PROJECTS to do or work on..aw. man... Super bowl was funn went to this shin digg with anthonys sister, had a couple of drinks. 3 more months till BIG BDay...Finally got devins CS. after a month. rediculous. HAd some tequila wit moms last weekend. MmmmM fondue. Do You Fondue? lol
Anthony got a job, zay is poopin in the toilet, oh and he might hav asthema :( hopefully not. After next week im doin general ed. OH NOOO.
My teacher fom cordova wants me to go up there friday to speak to her class...man i need to get all my reference letters together...ne way ima hit this thingy prolly next week. Muuuah! ;)

R.I.P Los We miss you. Happy Early Birthday

Three wisdom teeth less wise...?

Went to Anthonys first 3-D movie;)

Every thing is going greaat. i Got a 90% on an essay i did on urinaylsis annd a 97% on a Test... =)

LIFE is GOOD. me anthony got in our first real fight. i dont know who said it but i guess all healthy relationships are supposed to have good arguements every once in a while.right? They equal greeat make ups. ;) I think it really depends on what your arguing about huh? as long as it doesnt start getting immature imma stick around.
It was anthonys moms birthday so i made dinner and anthony made her a cake and we spent a day/nite in san francisco.


Shoppin in China Town.

This lady was doin some wierd ish on a stick.

We went to the arcade.

Went to Bubba Gumps for shrimp :PMmmM
School tomorrow YAY!
HAHAHAhaha.Well gotta go do some homework annd MAKE anthony stretch.lol

HELL:O New Year!

2010

My Handsome Love

At Midnight

Strawberries+Champaign+Hpnotiq= A Yummy New Year;)




2Bedroom Telly+2Bath+Kitchen= A Happy New Year(@)(@)