This thing is disgustingly old.
Makes me feel my true age.ugh.
Yikes!
Reading some older messages on my fb account and looking into my photobucket, I suddenly felt nauseous!
Why?
Because I was staring into my past, like gazing off into the rear view mirror and realizing your on the freeway going 50 in 5 o'clock traffic!
SNAP BACK!
Even though I seam fearless in person, contemplating on my past will still make my knees weak.
I wish I could delete it all.
Some of it, (even on this blog) is a bad accident on the side of the road, you have to ignore but can't resist.
Deliciously dangerous.
Juicy even.
Quick flash forward since my last post:
No car; All natural commute (my cute legs aren't complaining) ;)
Finished school; for the time being *shrugs*
I am officially a Legal Secretary/Clerk Yeah yea yeaah!
I have a duplex/house with a backyard that my son loveees.
My son is six now, going strong, missing his first tooth and is an absolute gentlemen.
My relationship with his father did not make it however; That bridge is completely demolished.
After a dramatic what could have been a MTV show escape, I completely removed myself from his "emotional baggage"/love triangle- Simply by blocking any and everyone on my social media accounts
(haha imagine that one).
Unfortunately the only relationship that is hurting is my son's with his father.
But it is not my problem to fix and it is not anything I can help.
Thus, my catering to his needs/wants has concluded.; My main focus is my Isiah as it should be.
My family (on my mom's side) is slowly but surely moving out here, my uncles moved to Palm Springs, my eldest cousin to Riverside, my Mom & her BF to SF and we are still trying to convince my grams to move her dusty butt out here.
I have came to the decision I do not believe in societies definition of "marriage" (under religious organization).
And
I might not be meant for the monogamous "relationship" paradigm.
I've concluded being happily single is much rewarding than unhappily married.
And social media is overrated.
Good Night xoxo
