Sooooo Where should i start....its bin long.feels lik forever. ummmm well no luck on my job search...i got a email that the maceys at sunrise is hiring but the stupid computer or they're page was fuckin up and wudnt let me apply..ima try tomorrow..its another day..im pretty sure me n BBdad is offically over. i don't know what he wants. i guess i can say i've never known what he wants buh its clear he doesnt want a family any more. or me any way. i cant do anything else but continue with my life and get my shit together. fuck his feelings and what he wants any more, its about me and my son now. thats how i feel rite now. if i cant figure out what he wants then y even bother?? i know what i want soo imma satisfy ME and what i know i want. And its not this drama.
He wants me...he doesnt want me
He cant live with out me...he hates me
He wants me to move in....he wants justin to move in
He wants isiah this weekend...he doesnt
He wants to see isiah today...no tomorrow
He wants to help me get on my feet....he doesnt want anything to do with me?
All of this and more? if this makes sense to anybody feel free and contact me...bcuz i dont get it after 3 lonnng ass years...it didnt feel long at all till we broke up? y does it do that? And he still has the nerv to get jelous even tho he says hateful shit to me and makes it clear he doesnt want me? if that isnt disfunctional i dont know what is.
Any Way As Usual this weekend ima TRY to get all this off my mind, get away..till monday anyway...
Goodnite my LOVE. Goodnite SIS. Goodnite G.-i miss u! lol Goodnite WORLD!
KeePiN iT FreSh Ta DEATH shEllY sheL<3
