Youve hurt me beyond repair. i dont kno wuh else to say or how else to say it. u dont want me? fine thats all good and graveey wit me...buh dont ever EVER say u or isiah will never need me. u have no rite to speak for him and no rite to come at me like the way u do. im done wit u as much as u said ur done wit me. i thought mayb MAYB i cud try to resolve somethin wit u mayb forgiv u buh not after tonite...i am really done and i feel sorry for u if u think im joking. iam really trying MORE then trying every day and if u dont think that then u REALLY DONT KNO ME AT ALL and thats a shame... i hav a plan and goals always have, they just had to change after everything that went down wit me n u....Im done letting u turn me into this ugly ass person wen im around u.im done.mayb u think if u turn me ugly itll b easier for u to get over me? i dunno? buh im toooooo beautiful for that shit. the way u felt wen i was PG and we wer livin in cordova inn and u werent able to provide for us and u wer feelin down and mayb embarassed..i feel lik that erryday..erryday. and all the hateful shit u have to say to me only brings me down even more THATS Y I AVOID TALKIN TO U. i am takin steps to my future mayb its not the shortcut i wanted, buh eventually I WILL get to where i wanna go. i will admit wen i quit my job to go to art skool while u provided for us was a short cut and i wasnt thinkin rite bcuz i was too excited and actually believed that this person who loves me soo is goin to let me shine lik he knows i can and i think u got selfish and decided at the last min. u didnt want me to become more independent or find a career that i wud only dream of. mayb u were a lil jelous bcuz u wer thirsting for education lik i was and it was soo much easier for me...I LOVED U WIT MY ALL...Y WUDNT I WANT U TO HAV THE SAME THAT I WANT FOR MYSELF??????im just trying to say that u had ur time to shine. u had the benz. u have thee high paying job that u wudve killed for back in that hotel room. u got to ur goals mayb not ur ultimate goal buh wen do i get to accomplish something?? I love you with all my heart...ive never put u down on ne of the decisions uve made besides the recent ones. ive always supported u in all ur dreams and goals...i wanted nothing buh the best for u and our family but rite now it seems that ur willing to just toss every thing that was once just goals and now that we've met them u dont like the outcome? instead of throwing it all away, throwing me away and taking the easier route y not take the harder route the one you could actually learn from and grow from together. when did we stop working together? Take the route isiah would be proud of....
i do hav a job i just dont get it till i finish my training. i am guaranteed a job that pays ATLEAST 13 a hour. mayb thats not as much as u make buh i can always continue my schooling while im working that job and eventually make 22 a hour as a nic nurse. then mayb i could go some where for art.....
the way u r treating me isnt fair. i take care of our son every day. u shudnt want me to be sad, mad, or depressed around him u shud want me at my BEST around him all the time. u shud want my love for him and his father to always shine threw every thing i do for him everyday...U SHUD b helping me if u really love ur son.bcuz he loves me.
dont help me its good. dont help me at all. Financially, wit isiah, rides, the hole shit.u dont have to be the one i count on anymore. buh dont talk to me the way u did tonite ever again. if u dont have anything nice to say to me dont say it at all. THATS THE ONLY THING I WANT FROM U.
Nobody is not born complete. we r "built" or born with everything to get by. it is our second nature to want to learn, grow and build our own personalities. to find ur "other half" or partner for life, is the ultimate complete and cant get threw life no other easier way buh to hav someone next to u as ur right hand man, some one u can count on, trust, make generations with, and they WILL compliment u bcuz you are complete and for them to be ur other half they wud have to be complete theirselves and will bring more positive to ur energy u bring to life.Thats Love.
u were my other half. And u hurt me beyond repair.
~I think tonite imma have him take me out for lamb...i love lamb. he "wants to talk"
