Honestly

For once in my life i cant predict whats about to happen this weekend but i know its going to change everything. Especially how i look at people and mos def how i treat someone.
not looking forward to what the future might bring :(
RIP cuzzin. love, may ur body and mind rest in peace and at ease- ur angel will be taken care of. Love You Always. Can't wait to meet again.

Something like this

-Siigh- my life goes something like this....
8AM woke up
8:30aboutAM change izzys diaper.laying in bed awake wishing i wasnt. isaih talking nonesense to me....
8:35 makin a cup of "Wah Wah Now!"lol while i make eggs n potatoes. brush isiahs teeth. he wants to sit on his toilet. so i let him. :)
9AMish isiah is naked somehow with only his socks on? WTF and throws up on the carpet...doesnt even cares that he threw up goes on wit playin naked, running from me laughing lol dripping throw up every where...ugggh. :)boys
9:30AM runnning a bath, captured him, brushed his teeth again. gave him a bath. splashes water every where.
10AMish hes settle enough to watch seaseme street while i mop up a mess i can call back my jobs and check e-mail.
10:30AM Elmos world is on and hes dancing im dancing too.lol :) wuh a lame job.what do you put on your resume? previous occupation child puppet elmo on national tv, let go becuz of substance asbuse haha.......finally get to brush my teeth.
10:45AM eating cold eggs n potatoes. cleaning the kitchen. isiah wants to go outside so i gotta put his pants and shoes on him.
11AMish isiah is crying, his teeth are hurting.-hes got three tryin to poke threw-
he has a fever sooooooo i giv him sum tylenol-out of tylenol shit :#
11:30AM Making lunch for zay. wake up G. ask her to watch isiah for me later bcuz i knew devin wasnt going to come threw.
11:45AMish isiah falls asleep! nap time! gettin out my pjs finally gettin ready for the day...yay!!! doin laundry.Booooo!
FAst Forward 12:45PM figured out wuh im wearing.feelin fabulous. isiah is coughing sooo hard in his sleep he throws up :( i hold him while he cries and cleaning it up with my other hand....multi task is the key word here. lol
1PM realize lunch is out of the question for him...people are calling abou goin to Zokkus....yeaaa NOT isiahs throwing up enough meals to feed africa er mexico.lol
1:30PMish kiss lil man bye. wihes me luck in his mysterous way. :)
Light Rail.........Walking............
2Pm on the dot i remember looking at the time.lol at my school ready for some tests.
3PM still at the schoool waiting for my counselor.....waiting......
3:30Pmish FINALLy out of there! cant wait to go home..lol walk to susies' makin plans wit gabby to get the other gurls to quit so i can hav they're jobs lol...wuh a good friend -Love-
Got waxed....Got jewelry...Got tylenol....
4PMish-Home yeee!
Relaxing. letting this dum dog lick my feet....lol
5PMish my sis is over G is cleaning lik a MAd Black Woman and bella is doin homework...im makin dinner Jambaliya-sp??lol isiah is kikin it on the counter sayin "cheeese" so i giv him cheese..lol
6PM Big Momma is home lol the family goes to costco.
6:30PMish eatin dinner. yum!
Isiah eats a lil doesnt throw up! yay!
8:30PM gettin him ready for bed Diaper change pjs brushin his teeth. pray and tellin him nite nite! lol
9PM call jerk and remind him to bring the rest of his sons clothes. That he was supposed to bring since sunday......UGGH.
Calls me while hes at work. probly bcuz his slut isnt around.
i hang up on him
he hangs up on me
plays his game and gets exactly what he wanted out of me once again. my time and patience.


I Promise
i will not shed another tear in his honor till the day he dies.TIll the day his lyin ass is wrinkled buried in the ground i will not cry anymore.When that happens mayb you'll get a tear outof me.THats really the only thing he counts on from me. and why should i even give him that.
Im angry
Hurt
and sad.
im goin to save this and look back on it when he comes wit that baby baby please. mayb not tomorrow or next month but he will.

something of a MAck! <3

Tired

Tired of this young ass generation and their careless living not realizing what they are really doing and whos lives they are touching and lives they have NO business in being in at all any way.
Im tired of it...
im goin to sleep next to my baby boy.And let my worries melt away as i watch him sleep peaceful -without a worry in the world-
imma pray for this fuckd up world we live in.
Today was thee usual. buh tomorrow is gunna b tuff.
LOVE YOU BABY BOY!

Advice? or Motto to live by?

The best advice to live by for any Girl.

maybe my little girl someday :)

The End is only The Begining

DAMN i havnt bin on here in a min....
Welll letsss see.
THeee weekends before this last i was kikn it wit dev he said he wantd to start new and the hole shit buh i think after this las weekend i see different. i see that he doesnt hav ne respect for me or loyalty and obviously isnt going to change. and i guess he thinks this isnt real that he takes this all as a joke...and im tired of being taken for granted. im done with that.
Now this las weekend hung wit my gurl G! the realest and illest bitch in thee east! next to me:) lol And chilled wit Gabby n Jovan drank and went to thee strip club-"is that throw up on the floor!"- then the nite b4 we drank and got down on some Transformers! lol

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Arms are for hugging.
Boys are for kissing.
Sluts are for dissing.
And BLF's are for when the boy is kissing the slut and all u really need is a hug
:)

Still Sunday :)

I love sundays. they are my lazy days...i can lay in bed. watch movies. and do laundry...ugh laundry...SoOo yEEah let see. my weekend. was good more of a blurr buh i think i wud member if it was bad...lol today was great. i got to be lazy in thee morning ;)-really cheesin- lol annnd then came home to G, bella, and my sis makin this monster of a mess of a fukin pizza hella F'in BOMB! lol isiah was runnin around lik an animal -as usual- lol and i had one more load of laundry to do...it was hella beauuUutiful outside sooo i cudnt resist. me n izz went to thee park then wally world for arrants-blah- got him this kik ass sprinkler device for kids lol pluggd that shit in wen we got back and ran threw it couple good times...lol zay got sprayed one good time in thee face..buh he took it lik a CHAMP! lol then me G and my sis -and izzy of corse- hung out on thee drive way waitin for the ice cream man to drive by our house bcuz for sum reason we kno wuh time he drives by! lmao-im joking we really dont we herd thee music-lol got sum icecream izzy fukd up errybodies...lol Big MAma made dinna...lol bomb of corse. then got zay ready for bed-always FUN!- laughing out loud... and now this...thats it...i hav a feeling spring break is goin to be intresting-i will keep u up on GAme-
GoodNite My LO<3vE.GoodNite Sis.GoodNite G.GoodNite stupid bitch dog that chewed up my slippers!.GoodNiTe homo!lol.GoodNite WorlD. LOVE YOU.

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