Things have been confusing, up isn't up and down isn't down. But what isn't confusing- I've definetly grown over the years and so has my son.
Life.
I don't know what else to say other than; Life.
I can truly say I treasure it more then I did yesterday or the day before.
I don't even mind the people who waste their time trying to effect mine; Truly flattering ;)
But I want to shake the people who take it for granted.
I can say I have not found where exactly my god fits in my life.
And maybe that is the key to true happiness.
Learning to live for today, not worried about tomorrow, let go and let god?
I envy the people who can live in today and not plan further than tomorrow; I've only found that the envy is returned in spite.
I am greatful for all that I have; when I am home off of work, sitting on my awesome couch, contemplating dinner, sipping on an awesome wine, in a beautiful glass my best friend bought me for a house warming gift, in my pretty living room full of pretty pictures that spark memories and I think to myself what the fuck is missing.
This room is anything but empty. Some days I just want to pack my cute bag and leave it all.
For LA.
